good bye

i am not going to DRP world again
as i think, maybe it is just be the best, to leave it there. with the light, sounds
 and also outside the castle, at the moment in the darkness, all of the character able to go through the wall and reach safely
it's a credit
all of us able to stay together and didn;t lost our hand
at the moment we go on the journey

what i had take in this module
learn to be more relax
slow down my pace
but, in reality

i have limitation on time
if i am slowing down, i will "floating with file, casenote" everyday
haiz....sometimes think back, want to work with Quality or Quantity??

if i am giving a chance, i will try to implement in community setting.
but with the younger group.
to see how it can work...

thank you every one,
be my helping hand
be my eyes
be my wings
be my spirit support
and giving me power to go through this

i am seeing u all in the other journey
maybe we will meet again
maybe not

but the great learning experience will always be
and keep in the little pandora box
which belong to mine, myself

good day every one. we will meet again ^_^

dedicating a song to u all "reflection"
i end this , and saying goodbye to all of u

The learning in Dramatic Role Playing

First Stage: Departure
I am seeing myself as a total rookie in this mini-module. i am not sure what to do at initial. I felt i have not much time to lean, and study this year... and yet i felt like, if i am keep delaying, when should i do this? my organization is WEIRD, i see myself as a worker in this big organization, i refuge to let organization to represent myself, i am just x10, a new person, who is working in helping profession feels like want to top-up some new skill that can benefit myself and my service to client.


when i receive email from JO, i told myself, just go lah. even no people support you, just go lah. without company support and understanding also never mind. for this, i left out my company community work. sometimes i did not attend the company function, like family days, caring community service to joint the out-reach program. i am just not able to do so....

when i saw those familiar faces, and a friends of mine join together
i just feel like being together. the feeling of togetherness is here...

after the workshop, Alex start to give out the task...


Second Stage: Initiation

this is not an easy task. i was not knowing what to choose the character? what to do in imagination with myself in-front of the computer, this is so new to me. once, my land lady seeing me talk to myself in front of computer and there is few voices coming out, my land lady asked :"whether i am over stress, do i need help"?
haha, it is a funny experience. really Jesting

there is 2 new members in this ALS. personally i do not know them much. i see them once or twice. not much contact too.... meeting with this new memebrs, trying to know them better, and talk to them, be nice to them, and understand how can we work better. I am easy type, i am not very demanding. as long as we can  communicate, i think problem should bot be a problem.

it's a test, when we encounter switching communication medium from SKYPE to CHANTANGO
when the time management is drop, and somebody not able to online.
and at the same time, we do share our imaginary work togather. we fly, we dive, we touch, we smell
when the Crest Maiden was food poisoning, the team seems so eager to help. WHAT a good food poisoning. people eat the Blue berry is ok, blue berry? or the black one?? i can't recall
but Crest maiden took the berry, get poison...

then,
come to the 3 act script. i had encounter with time limitation. too many cases in my organization, heavy workload, with the training... i somehow, unable to contribute much. i see the others' ALS members putting a lot of effort to do it.

When Phaik Nee and others told me, i was choosen to play as TANYA, i am not willing to. i asked myself, no others people can do this? but yet, when i see the group members so excited and using me and Melinda as projection of marshila and Tanya, i tell myself, go and have fun. i am trying to understand the other concept and role which they want TANYA to be in 3-act script

it do touch my heart. when the part TANYA was attempt by Harri Penari, and Marshila had started to destroy the Dragonville.   In the journey, seeeking Queen of Elves, trying to reparation, make off the mistake, rescuing the Dragonville....... i did not cry, but i felt a little commiserate.... not every story can go back to the same track, and able to move on, give a new meaning of life. Queens of Elves can be there, The God of Tata can be there, but if TANYA herself refuge and not willing to took the initiation to go along with the journey, there would be no outcome, no changes, no SORRY after neglected the responsibility, left the Dragonville chaos..

 
i start to think of my ROLE, in this helper role.... ....
if clients willing to change, is a bonus, but if clients i meet with, i already try my best, yet they DIE, or eventually they go back to the path they choose, specifir for those juvenile delinquency youth, WHY should i feel sorry!  i start to letting go... a bit by bit....

i am not sure whether this is good? or no good...
but i can see my tense is lower a little bit.

Third Stage: Return
 It's a ending. but it also a new starting point.
i am not sure how can i use this in my helping profession, but i am sure.... for those who likes to role-play within a small space, it will definitely help. role-play another character they not preferred, role play the others' person they care, role play with themselves, by creating a new character。。。




i learn that, preparation stage is important, especially briefing about the entrance, the rituals part.

this is the end.?
no...this is the start......
another new journey will began
 

near, at the return

Alex drop an email on 20th July 2010

he said

" Hi

Just a quick note to congratulate the ALS for a mission well executed and accomplished. Well done. I would like to offer a end of the module debriefing session next Wednesday at 8pm Msian time 28th July I thought you might like some feedback as well as an opportunity to tie up any loose ends. I will be sending the links for the usual peer review and in the meantime you may want to complete your personal learning journal looking at the module objectives/outcomes and offer a summary commenting on the how and to what degree you have met those outcomes/objectives in other words what learning have you gained most from the module....."

it's near to the return...but i feeling hardly to let it go. WHY ar??
i feel lazy to do the writting on the character role play, the voice, the whole learning session
but i know when time is right, is going to moved to another stage. starting a new module again
i need to say goodbye to Marshilla, Tanya, Queens of Elves, Harri Penari,  Unicorn, God of Tata .... .....

the return, when i am back to the reality life
what i have with my inner strength?
i am thinking.. ....

Facilitator Sheet.

i felt like would like to make a cover for the facilitator sheet
thus, i make this when i am back to penang after my leave

Open publication - Free publishing - More therapy

finally complete the facilitator sheet

14.7.10, wednesday night, my company having operation
rescuing the homeless people
i had stay back at office from 10pm till 5.30 am
the day after that, i need to work to 5pm

lucky mary help out to do the facilitator sheet
and give the comment

i do not know that Elaine mean "delete" the red colour pharase, or change the red colour according to the blue colour comments done by mary
in my computer, when i open the facilitator sheet sent back by elaine and mary
actually some part is missing

so i am quite  confused, with the part higlight with red, but no comments
but when in SKYPE tonight, elained keep repeating with me GOT, double check
haiz...so funny
when i think of we look at the same sheet, but different input


















this is how my facilitator sheet look like when i open and redownload it again and again
it's a hanging phase there

so i am kind of blur, what does it means
so, i revised again, deleted all the comments and pu in new ideas of ALS members
i am blur, so i decided to put the same as there is no COMMENT

yet, Elaine told me there IS....
my god

we are talking about this topic for so long
finally i just make up conclusion
that is, the sheet that i looked at actually got some missing part.
i blamed on computer system/ or the different window/ versions of MS office

haiz.....

what a weird situations

haha

finally done.
i will asked to submit this work to Alex Chew
so, wait for others members to send me things back

12.7.10: audio making on the script

i have a deep feeling on the scene
which Tanya cry so hardly,sobing and keep repeating sorry

when i am role playing as Tanya
then, my mind alwayz flash back to the youngster
especially the female young client that i encounter

WHY there must be regretful when doing the wrong thing?

it's make me feel so sad

TQ melinda and the ALS members contribution on this making
we r making a new journey, and create a new miracle

finally, complete the facilitator sheet

to all ALS members
i done the facilitator sheet...
looks like i didn't waste the Penang State Holiday on 7th July 2010
haha, try to work on script with others members
and also finally come out with the facilitator sheet meet the group expectation
whatever, i am having too many task/ role at the moment
tomorrow will onleave go back to hometown
Melinda told me i having too much role on "helper"
not necesarry as counsellor, but always help out people
she did let me aware, sometimes i need to "de-roll" myself as "helper" role

i guess, i need to learn that
 i didn't aware that i am doing this all the time
it reflect my present life
eg:

my younger brother would like to do a small business, seeking my help
i have not enough financial support, but i had given a little of my saving to let him start business
i think i should help him, as he is my only younger brother i have

then, another scene is
my coursemate/university mate who is close to me,
her grandmother passed away recently
and she think she is "abnormal" because unable to feel the sadness during grandmother funeral
she is seeking my attention, and we did talk a lot about her reaction
well, am i doing the helper role again? or just listener?

scene 3:
my cousin's pet pass away, die
she felt so upsad, couldn't let go and really depressed on the died of the dog
she felt herself should be blame on the carelesness
and she is pregnant now, early september will deliver baby
my mother asked me to talk to her, let her do not be so upsad (as i am studying counselling, knowing how to comfort people, elderly told it's not so good to be sad when pregnant.????)
so, am i doing the helper role again?

scene4:
my relatives commit sucicide, trying to swallow the retamol- i think is antidepresent drugs to make someone feel ease. she is having conflict with the husband. my family asked me to talk to her? and they keep calling to asked me back to have a look
(so, am i doing the helper role again?)

this present issues is regarless work, it;s life, the social part, which is living closely with me。
i can play a good role when i am in my working space
but, when things that have connection or significant relationship with me, more or less, it really influence my  emotion unconscioulsy
i am so tired.....physically, and my sore throat still on-and -off come back
haiz.....

back to the drama sheet
i am having time constrain, thus i try to complete this ASAP
well, i hope every of the ALS members will look through, and kindly give input
and, of course, please ignored my lousy grammar/ spelling error
i am not able to online this weekend
so, will meet you all Monday

haha.......
Thank you everybody for being such a wonderful ALS members
when there is small conflict, of course, there will be some group development
this group is strong enough in the capability
i would like to send my apologies if i am not able to meet ALS member's expectation.
i try what i can& what i can't

i am lucky to have this  Heroes In Transitions Journey .....

Three-act Structure

 three-act-play,
Act I comprises the first quarter of the screenplay. (For a two hour movie, Act I would last approximately 30 minutes.)
Act II comprises the next two quarters of the film. (For a two hour movie, Act II would last approximately 60 minutes.)
Act III comprises the final quarter of the film. (For a two hour movie, Act III would be the final 30 minutes.)

how is this 3 act structure?
i mean when come o the decision making, whether the template should go for 1 day workshop, 3 session for (1) departure, (2) initiation, (3) return? or become 8 session, each scene for one session?


melinda is initiate for facilitator sheet, i am helping in this as well.
when we look at the therapeutic dramatic role playing, we look at the time, impact, and also the ‘digestion" of the character...


so, i suggested, we try to fix this with group consensus :)
before me and melinda moved on wards
will see how........
haha

finally...go with the script

this is really marvellous
i really pay high salute for all
the effort, the contribution, the comment, and the fedback
for me, this is really a learning, and it's really make us moved along the storylline

How the main character encounter the obstacles, failed the task, and also go back again return with new lifestyle. the transition period within the character, really can feel the character growth, and be mature

in this life, we might encounter many problems
i can see that, how this character be inter-related with nowadays adolescent/ teenagers

the script is done!

wow.........i really think we are so power rangers..........
haha
i "tumpang" their success....feel like i am so few contribution in this
haiz.........

i would convey my apologies for my ALS members
i try to arrange things and time to fit in the discussion.....
look like i am a bit late....
gotta work a lot. 

dreaming...dancing

yesterday, it's online discussion with ALS members about the storyline for mission impossible
the tanya and Dragonville story
i am not going to discover what happends in the story,
hehe...Sifu, you need to wait to us to do the presentation

i am having a dream
i am dreaming, i am dancing under the moonlight
with SPECIAL HIM...

haha....
it's really so co-inciddent again....
my sore throat still smetimes good, sometimes bad...

stress is a lot....but still can manage well

go back to my dreaming about dancing

i can remember very clearly
I and HIM, my special HIM lah, who else
dancing under the moonlight,
slowly, pace by pace, step by step
and this is so romantic and touch
I and HIM didn't say any words
we just dance in a circle under the moon

that's it i could remember

no kiss kiss... no special action...but purely dancing....
guess, later i want to go google, what is it about dancing in dream?
dance under the moon......
haha

28.6.2010: Dreamy Adventure

this round, Crest maiden and the team dive under the sea
and able to rescue PhloxE who get stuck in the seaweeds
then, they after the golden palace, but the palace had changed.....
meeting up with blue creature, firstly, the blue creature really look not friendly
but finally, invite the team to follow to the palace.
still seeing the light
and the light is somewhere at the window of the palace


i felt that, in this journey, i am bit by bit growing
i can feel the strong bondig among the Shaylee, skysaver, Crest maiden with OFO& LR
this is something i felt before this, the chemical didn;t work
but day after day, the bonding, the relationship among them growth too

i am wondering to myself, where is the light from?
what is this blue to me?
why the blues seems so unfriendly?
what is it representative?
the wall.......the sounds, the flute sounds........
and the KURA....yet to discover..........