Guess what? i am feeling sick....
yesterday night, after buying some stuff from supermarket,
suddenly i feel the pain with my stomach
o... it's my menstrual period , and this round....it's early several days
i feel dizzy, and really paleness.... just feeling to want to sleep
then, i am having Sore throat this morning
i am so tired, at yesterday night after reaching home around 9.00 pm
i can't make myself for discussion...though i want to get online
i am fall asleep
maybe this is the indicator to show that i need some break
things move too fast, things come into without following any signs
yet, work still need to done.
few happening cases is in control
though i might say i am feeling fine, i still can handle it
but,
my unconscious, my body, give me some sign...
if you not take any break, you might feeling to sick
what a "good poison"
the awareness come in
i am mindful again....
still no any feedback from my upper management level whether i would be request to follow-up the 9 years old case. but If i have choice, this round i do not want to receive it. pass to others people. as in my workplace, got 9 of us, 6 of them is registered counsellor. i guess, they can handle it very well... isn't it.
in this dramatic role playing.... i am not wanting myself roleplaying as "counsellor"
but at this moment, i just want to be x10 who want some time to rest.
can i say, this is from the invisible to visible scene,
that i want HOLIDAY?
though i still have 32 days annual leave, but seems like not playing good role?
gotta apply leave and step out from Penang, i guess :)
hahaha
Thank you ALS members, especially Melinda, Phaik Nee, Elaine
who are so concern about me. And Thank you Alex Sifu, Priscilla to give me some idea.
WHY worry? it will comes, and it will goes... and it will moved again....won't be static there
so, just RELAX.....
and
wait and see
It seems your body can't hide it any more..it has given you multiple signals to tell you to rest or else your body will get poisoned and fall sick. It is interesting that your real life has projected itself in the crestmaiden's role. Take care.
ReplyDeleteTake good care yourself, x10
ReplyDeleteOur body is really our good helper! Instead of looking outward for someone to help us, let us turn to our Body, the nearest and closest helper to us that we tend to take for granted. Let the wisdom of the Body speak to us!
ReplyDeleteThe wisdom of the body can only be heard when the voices of our 'ego' can be turned down. No matter how many times the body calls out to be 'nurtured' the ego overrides such messages especially when our 'compulsive helper' says if that 'I want to be compassionate, well thought of, superwomen, caring etc etc that I have no options but to compromise my 'soul' or 'spirit' to the idealised image of ourselves that we unconsciously fear would disappear if we don't deliver even to the detriment of our well being......these is what brings many to the doors of the therapist when they 'burn out' Rest is a only temporary solution.......Waking up to it might offer a more effective one.
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